Every Emotion at Once...

So much has happened since I last posted I don't even know where to begin. Well, long story short; with my body, of course, nothing can just be simple and easy... we've had one ER trip and one emergency appointment so far- on top of regularly scheduled appointments... We are all adults here so I'll just put it out there so everyone understands what our situation is right now and so we can all be praying together. Last year I had some cervical cancer removed through a procedure called a leep; at the time the doctors told me I had an extremely long cervix which would only add to the list of things making it hard for us to get pregnant. Well, after having lots and lots of cervical pains/spasms, my Ob doctor took a look at my cervix and was amazed by how short it is. How can one doctor see it and say it's extremely long and the next (whom I trust much, much more) say it is extremely short?? She said it should be as long as my pinky finger right now, but is barely as long as the very tip of a pinky finger (Your pinky is three sections- the top section is the one she was referring to). She told me to take it easy, keep my feet up as much as possible and will have it measured on the 30th of July to figure out exactly where we go from here. From what I've heard and researched it usually means mandatory, strict bed rest right away and for the rest of the pregnancy; if the baby is not already lost in the beginning of the second trimester. I'll let everyone know as soon as I do. Such a scary time, but we're making it through, one day at a time.
Also, for those of you who do not already know, Casey is deployed for the next three months. He is beyond amazing and writes as often as he can, but I know it's just as hard for him to be away as it is for me to go through all of this without him. We are truly, truly, truly blessed with such beyond amazing friends and family that have made this time so much more bearable and have really blessed us with such love, comfort and most importantly prayers. For this we cannot thank you enough!! We are soooo grateful and feel beyond blessed.
On to some happy news ~ finally ~ the belly is growing everyday! It is so weird to me to have a belly for the first time in my life.. Most people don't even notice it, but for me- this is huge! And to think this is just the beginning!
I promise to update more, as things are finally beginning to settle down. Thank you all for your amazing love, prayers & support. XoXo